life: frustration

ok.

so recently, w. my root canal, i had to watch what i was eating: i can't have lots of things like pizza, corn, or ribs b/c i can' use my front teeth to eat.

but that's sorta not really true since i can cut it up to eat. i just have to eat spare ribs + pizza w. a fork and knife.

fun.

but yea. so i've lost 24 lbs. so far. from 128--114. i mean, i would/should be happy, but i'm not b/c i know that i didn't do anything to justify this weight loss, therefore it's unhealthy.

but i don't know what i'm doing wrong!

i mean school's out. i shouldn't have stress. but i sorta do b/c i've been looking 4 a job, applying to seven thousand different places. seeing hours i can do, making a resume, transportation, ect.


but i still haven't herd back from any of them yet, and it's been about a week by now.

but it's also not really a stress since i don't really need the extra money--i mean, it would be nice u know. buy a nice set of speakers for my new iPod nano. new earbuds. but i don't need it. so it's not really stressful; i just had my hopes up--it was my first time actually seriously considering a summer job, and i was naive. i mean, in this economy? with my non-existant work history, my age, my hours? i mean, i'm only asking for minimum wage, but still. i'm only available on the slowest days, unable to work the entire business day, no work history, poor references....

but yea.

and then i broke out for no reason. huh.

but i recently went back 2 the dentist, and he originally said i had 2 keep the brace on 4 six months, but now, i can take it off next month, meaning i've only had it on for 2 months. but hey--the sooner, the better. at this rate, it's guaranteed that i will not get my braces off by senior year.

but i just brush it off. i mean, i know several people who did their braces in their 40s, and are very happy w. it.

the thing that i'm sorta scared of is that i can't do braces after this b/c my tooth would have attached completely with my skull, making it impossible to correct my overbite with braces. that happens when you do a root canal. originally, your teeth aren't attached to your skull, enabling braces to move them; but when you break off the root, or do a root canal, there's a chance the tooth will grow back, and completely attach to the skull.